Hey there adoring fans (Erin Holmes)!
I love Tuesdays. After an overwhelmed and overworked 2013, I have finally organized a work schedule to adhere to my income, creative needs, and age (ie. retiring my shot girl short shorts, creating a budget for Prilosec, and making time for an afternoon snooze). I am working a reasonable amount of hours each week and have scheduled in some Sarah Time. On Tuesdays, I have an ample amount of time to be creative, and write a blog post. The problem with Tuesdays though, is that I am not creative, nor do I ever finish writing a blog post. In fact, this is the 3rd Tuesday in a row that I’ve been working on this here post. This is what happened last Tuesday…
1. I watch youtube videos and sip coffee.
3. I start working on my blog post.
4. I wander around the apartment and dangit! Time to take out the recyclables.
5. Holy turd rockets, it’s cold outside! I should probably get back to work.
6. But then I wonder who left this weird old armoire in our basement?
7. Holy s*it! I bet it’s just like that mirror from the first Harry Potter book!!!!!
8. Now if I just sit here long enough, I’m sure I’ll be able to see myself become the Head Boy and Gryffindor take the Quidditch Cup.
6 hours later. I start watching TV having accomplished nothing.
You see, readers. I have a huge problem finishing things. I get close. I do about 90% of what needs to be done. But then I get distracted by something else and don’t complete the task at hand. I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately, and wondering why I have such a hard time with finishing. Then I looked back at my life as a performer. As a dancer, my only real responsibilities were to stay in shape and show up for auditions. And the results were either:
A. Get job.
-Your Agent calls and tells you that you’ve booked a job.
-The Company manager books your travel, to and from the location and tells you what hotel you’re staying at.
-The Director and Choreographer tell you what to do and how to do it.
-The hotel mattress give you bed bugs.
-The Hotel manager puts all of your stuff in boiling water.
-The Company manager gives you benadryl.
-You do the show for 8 weeks.
-The show closes.
-The Company manager sends you home.
B. Don’t get job.
-Go to more auditions.
Hmmm…no wonder I can’t finish things! I’ve never had to. I’ve always relied on someone else doing that part for me. Nuts.
Plus, I’ve realized this little conundrum:
If you never finish things, you never have to start anything new.
I’d love to get to the gym, but I really need to finish cleaning my room = if I never finish cleaning my room, then I never have to go to the gym.
I’d love to save more money, but first I should probably finish doing my taxes to see where I stand financially = if I don’t do my taxes, I’ll never know how much I owe or am refunded so I don’t have to deal with where I stand financially.
I should probably make a plan for my writing future, but I still haven’t finished that blog post about not being able to finish things = If I don’t finish my blog posts, I don’t have to come up with how writing is going to tie into the rest of my life.
Well, not anymore! It is week 3 of working on this gosh darn blog post, and I am finished! I am Sarah the FINISHER (which coincidentally is also the name of my new super hero/serial killer comic book series…which is my new plan for how writing is going to tie into the rest of my life…maybe).