Hey there adoring fans (Erin Holmes)!

I love Tuesdays.  After an overwhelmed and overworked 2013, I have finally organized a work schedule to adhere to my income, creative needs, and age (ie. retiring my shot girl short shorts, creating a budget for Prilosec, and making time for an afternoon snooze).  I am working a reasonable amount of hours each week and have scheduled in some Sarah Time.  On Tuesdays, I have an ample amount of time to be creative, and write a blog post.  The problem with Tuesdays though, is that I am not creative, nor do I ever finish writing a blog post.  In fact, this is the 3rd Tuesday in a row that I’ve been working on this here post.  This is what happened last Tuesday…

1.  I watch youtube videos and sip coffee.

2.  I finish my coffee.

3.  I start working on my blog post.

4.  I wander around the apartment and dangit! Time to take out the recyclables.

5.  Holy turd rockets, it’s cold outside!  I should probably get back to work.

6.  But then I wonder who left this weird old armoire in our basement?

7.  Holy s*it!  I bet it’s just like that mirror from the first Harry Potter book!!!!!

8.  Now if I just sit here long enough, I’m sure I’ll be able to see myself become the Head Boy and Gryffindor take the Quidditch Cup.

6 hours later.  I start watching TV having accomplished nothing.

You see, readers.  I have a huge problem finishing things.   I get close.  I do about 90% of what needs to be done.  But then I get distracted by something else and don’t complete the task at hand.  I’ve been thinking about it a lot lately, and wondering why I have such a hard time with finishing.  Then I looked back at my life as a performer.  As a dancer, my only real responsibilities were to stay in shape and show up for auditions.  And the results were either:

A.  Get job.

-Your Agent calls and tells you that you’ve booked a job.

-The Company manager books your travel, to and from the location and tells you what hotel you’re staying at.

-The Director and Choreographer tell you what to do and how to do it.

-The hotel mattress give you bed bugs.

-The Hotel manager puts all of your stuff in boiling water.

-The Company manager gives you benadryl.

-You do the show for 8 weeks.

-The show closes.

-The Company manager sends you home.

or…

B.  Don’t get job.

-Go to more auditions.

Hmmm…no wonder I can’t finish things!  I’ve never had to.  I’ve always relied on someone else doing that part for me.  Nuts.

Plus, I’ve realized this little conundrum:

If you never finish things, you never have to start anything new.

Check it…

I’d love to get to the gym, but I really need to finish cleaning my room = if I never finish cleaning my room, then I never have to go to the gym.

I’d love to save more money, but first I should probably finish doing my taxes to see where I stand financially =  if I don’t do my taxes, I’ll never know how much I owe or am refunded so I don’t have to deal with where I stand financially.

I should probably make a plan for my writing future, but I still haven’t finished that blog post about not being able to finish things = If I don’t finish my blog posts, I don’t have to come up with how writing is going to tie into the rest of my life.

Well, not anymore!  It is week 3 of working on this gosh darn blog post, and I am finished!  I am Sarah the FINISHER (which coincidentally is also the name of my new super hero/serial killer comic book series…which is my new plan for how writing is going to tie into the rest of my life…maybe).